Getting closer every day

We Sullivans Three are off to Rochester this weekend for our third, and hopefully final, post placement visit with our social worker for Harrison's adoption. Yay! Although it will be a long drive with a more than likely grumpy child (he's not into being contained in any manner these days), I do love a roadtrip! I like packing CDs and snacks, getting out our road maps and travel mugs, making lists of things to bring and packing a notepad for any lists I might want to make in transit. I love having hours of time with nothing else to do but talk to Brendan (and now Harrison, too). We will do the whole trip in one day...the weather looks perfect for driving: sunny and a mild 47 degrees. Rochester is a little over four hours from here, so it will be a long day, but by sunset tomorrow we will have fulfilled all of our requirements for eligibility to adopt Harrison. The meeting with our SW will be at her home during one of her meetings with prospective adoptive parents (people just starting the process or home study). When we went to our meeting last year seeing the children with their parents was what made the adoption, the paperwork, etc. seem REAL. How fun that we can now return the favor and provide that essential hope to other couples. It feels like we're coming full circle.

We're also getting closer every day...soon Harrison will officially and legally be our son! We love him as our son and think of him as our son, but until the papers are in our hands stating it is true we will have a shadow following us. When you've gone through life and infertility you know that nothing is guaranteed...so many things we take for granted just...aren't. So we have Harrison, but there is always a shadow of fear that we will lose him, that he'll be taken away for some reason or another. We guard our hearts a little more closely, and we cherish everyday things a little more because in the back of our minds we don't know how long it will last. I have every faith that this adoption will be finalized, that Harrison will grow up in our loving arms to be a happy, well adjusted, respectful, and good man...I just really, really, really want the piece of paper that makes it official, so I can let my heart relax a little.

Please send good weather and driving vibes our way, that we may travel safely there and back!